spending my sweet 13 this yr <3
celebrating my b'dae at 21/o2 =)
Currently an AHSian,in 1E'10 ^^
formerly a TKPian,in 1A'04,2E'05,3B'06,4E'07,5B'08,6B'09
♥DESIRE♥
To have a N97 before i reach 15^^
To be able to study in US for University :D
To have lots of true friends and have a happily-ever-after life =)
To have lots of money for shopping :D
To have a new bag!!!! :)
To have a 6B class gathering not organised by me!!!♥
To have the vest in Esprit(but i think it's impossible?)
To have lots of birthday presents every year
I have to go cca today,so when i reach my cca,i was like: "sry,i forgot to bring my consent form for the genting trip"to my sectional leader,Joann,den she said "nvm :)". Okay,after dat,she suddenly go rdm and said she might be sharing the same room as me in genting because it is a twin room. I was like "Oh really?!?!?! :D" den she started to say dat she actually wished she would be with her friend who is from the same section.
As you can guess,i was like quite heartbroken,although i nvr say it. I mean,who wouldn't be sad if someone actually told you dat?? yup,and this is actually the second time dat she hurt me. It really makes me regret going to Genting. I don't want to go there and end up being a loner and Joann has to end up being so upset being with me. I want this to be a happy trip,and not like everything is against your will :( Actually,what is wrong with me?? I am just being a little talkative sometimes so dat i can brighten up the atmosphere,but if you think it's really unnecessary,you can just tell me straight right?? And do you know dat i am actually TRYING to be less hyper because of you?? Why must you stab my heart for the second time?!?!?! D: For your information,one apology can't really mend a broken heart,i mean,if you actually change,dat will be different,but you repeated it! :'( Do you know dat i am crying in my heart? And i bet nobody else will ever want to share a room with me,just like how nobody will ever want to sit beside me in the concert hall,it really breaks my heart,do u know dat?? :'( Now,i suddenly feel so alone and bored in CO,because nobody will actually like want to be my partner and talk to me or sth,except for sui dan. So sad dat she isn't going :( And i seriously feel like an extra whenever we go out together. It makes me feel so horrible that i sometimes really regret joining CO.
I really don't know what can mend my heart. Maybe time will make everything fade away,and i will feel numb towards this,but pls dun apologise,because,i will feel sadder,as you rake up the past in me :(
Please,dun hurt me a second time anymore,thanks >.<
